Ever wanted something so bad that it hurt. I have learned that that burning anxiousness is called passion and that I have a lot of. As a young teen it is normal to be torn between who we want to be and who we think we are now, but the days are only getting closer and they are suffocating me.
I know that I can be an amazing writer and do great things with skills I am bound to develop but what if that time does not come soon enough? Teaching ? My saf job but it isnt really the right job. I want to be able to live in a way thats exciting and help others through my passion. I love to teach but writing is something thats so deep that no words could ever explain the feeling, not even love which is a word that does not even have a definition and contains so many different variables.
I would love to be the girl that says, “I’ll just see where life takes me,” but I dont want that. I want to be in charge. So when does my deciscion finally become finalize? When I start listening to my heart and not to my brain and unfortunetly for me they are still in the same place and I’m torn between the safe job and the right job.